Well, what I mean is, I'm going to be a follower today and post my "Things I'm Afraid to Tell You."
As you've probably seen, "Things I'm Afraid to Tell You" is a movement to bring about authenticity in blogging and amongst bloggers. It began with this beautifully written post (a must read!) by Jess Constable, and continued when Ez of Creature Comforts gathered up a long list of bloggers to join her in raising their transparent voices for all to hear.
Then, last week, Meg of Mimi and Meg gathered another group of awesome gals together for Wave 2, and that's where I come in, following behind them on a wave of blogging support and being spurred on by feelings that I myself have been having about blogging lately.
So, here goes:
ONE: I worry all the time that my blog comes across as superficial because I mainly post about material things. I consider myself to be a very down-to-earth person, and have so much more to say than just what my favorite shoe of the moment is. I find Recently to be my place to escape, to dream, to observe the beautiful things in life and appreciate them for what they are. I don't, however, think that my worth is in my possessions, and I absolutely don't want to come across that way.
To make a long story short, I pray that Recently can be a place to find inspiration of all sorts, material and otherwise. On that note, if there is anything I've posted about before that you would like to see more of, please please please let me know!
TWO: I'm scared to death to post pictures of my home. Oh how I hate admitting that! I love my house, but, to me, it's not exactly how I want it yet. In keeping with the article that started all of this in the first place, I'll be honest and say I don't feel like it's "Pinterest Perfect." For shame, for shame! I've challenged myself to start posting more pictures of my house, so hopefully I'll get brave and do so in the coming weeks. It's a part of me after all, and y'all know I'm not perfect!
THREE: I lie awake almost every night wondering how I'm going to make blogging work with my life. It's usually about 1:00 am, after I've worked on a blog post for the last 4-5 hours. Don't get me wrong, the reason I blog is because I absolutely, unbelievably, crazy love it. It's my passion and has literally changed me as a person. I'm more motivated now, more focused and more driven than I've ever been in my life. But, I'm also a wife and mom and those jobs take up more space in my heart than anything else. I feel major guilt if blogging interferes with my family life (usually in the form of me being tired) and I've had to find a way to make it all relatively work.
You might have noticed that I haven't been posting as much lately. I told myself that I would only post three days a week right now. (I feel like a broken record when saying that, because I've tried to take a step back before!) I think I'll ramp things up when school starts again, but can't make any promises! Just cutting out those one or two days a week has helped tremendously, and I almost feel like I might be getting this thing...almost.
FOUR: And finally...the toughest one for me. I've mentioned a few times on here that I want to write for a living one day. I figure the best way to break out of my shell is to share some of what I've written. So, today, I'm sharing a poem. Nerd alert! :) It's a poem I wrote a loooong time ago, when I was 17 to be exact, but it's one of my favorites, so I thought a few of you might like it too. And with that, here's a poetry blast from the past:
So, there was a little glimpse into my idyllic seventeen year old mind.
Maybe one day I'll share something that I've written within the past five years! :) Maybe.
PS: I hope you'll take a look at some of the original "Things I'm Afraid To Tell You" articles that I linked to above, and if you post your own let me know in the comments.
Lots of love to all of you!